Stressful Times

A lot has been going on in my world the past few weeks. One is that graduation is rapidly approaching and I have nothing lined up for after it! I have not been able to even get a job interview and it is stressing me out completely. I am totally broke right now and I am not sure how I am going to pay student loans, nursing school prerequisites, car insurance, medical copays, etc. without a job.

Speaking of nursing school, I am planning on signing up for microbiology, chemistry and human growth and development this summer. I had to drop chemistry this semester because it was too much to focus on and I was not doing as well as I wanted. Now to pay for them...

Another big issue is health insurance. Since I am in MA, I am required to have it. While I really like this, most of the providers I have now will not accept the state health insurance. So I will have to start fresh with a new set, which is always fun (extreme sarcasm).

On the lupus front, however, there is much better news. I am doing and feeling great. My rheumatologist said this is the healthiest she has seen me in the 2.5 years I have been seeing her. Pretty nice to hear, especially since I feel the same way also.

The semester is wining down, which of course means a lot of work. Oof. I just wish I had a crystal ball to look to the future so I can see if everything will be OK or not.

Stress, Lupus and a Prednisone Taper

I'm about ready to shut my brain off for a while. This semester has been really taking a toll on me. Even though I was taking six classes and working both jobs last semester, it was not nearly this bad. I am completely lacking enough time to get my work done and take care of myself. Throw in a rapid taper from 25mg of prednisone to 10mg, and you have a pretty bad combination. I didn't quite realize how much good the prednisone was doing until now. I came home from work on Sunday and my joints were screaming at me.

I had a talk with my dad this afternoon and he told me that he would help me financially if I reduced my work hours. That is very nice of him but I don't want that to happen. He helps me out now and I know its a lot for him.

I think my schedule even for a person who is not sick is a lot. I don't want to reduce my hours or slow my prednisone taper so I need to figure out something.

Off For A While?

I am starting my second class of the summer today. It is pretty intense with papers, discussions, readings and about 4-5 normal length movies to watch each week. So I am doing something new and warning everybody in advance that I might be absent for a little bit (now watch me blog every day...)

Turned to Stone

Unfortunately I am dealing with kidney stones at the moment. It is not the first time I have had them. One time they kept me in the hospital for a week and I was discharged on my (18th? It's hard to keep track) birthday. No hospital admissions in sight for me this time around though, I'm dealing well with them on my own.

My online class started yesterday and I have done none of the reading yet. I have also not gotten back into the apartments for next semester, found a job, and my financial situation is still pretty awful. All around I'm just not in the best mood.

That's it for now. I have to go to school n Friday to see the eye doctor again so I will post again after that.

Time

I am lacking in it. I'm feeling overwhelmed with school, work and other stuff going on with friends and family. I can't wait until summer, even though I will be working at the place I did my internship last summer, hopefully working and taking two classes. I just want a break.

I have been reading other blogs recently and a lot of them are talking about taking time out for yourself and relaxing. I can't seem to do that. Money is a serious issue and I can't just stop working. And the semester is winding down, so I can't ask for extensions without getting more stressed out later. I almost did not go to work today, but then I thought about my paycheck and went anyway. One of these days I really will relax.