Time

I am lacking in it. I'm feeling overwhelmed with school, work and other stuff going on with friends and family. I can't wait until summer, even though I will be working at the place I did my internship last summer, hopefully working and taking two classes. I just want a break.

I have been reading other blogs recently and a lot of them are talking about taking time out for yourself and relaxing. I can't seem to do that. Money is a serious issue and I can't just stop working. And the semester is winding down, so I can't ask for extensions without getting more stressed out later. I almost did not go to work today, but then I thought about my paycheck and went anyway. One of these days I really will relax.

Slowly but Surely?

This bleeding thing I hope is beginning to resolve. I think it may have slowed down tonight, but I'm not entirely sure. I will take another double dose of Aygestin tonight. Unfortunately, I have been dealing with a headache since last night and I have been running a fever over 100 today.

In better news, I have made really nice dinners for myself the past couple days. I made chicken fajitas last night and lemon caper chicken tonight. DEE-licious. Tomorrow I will make oatmeal chicken, which is really just a way of making mock fried chicken. I'm really loving this cooking thing.

I really hope I stop bleeding soon. I'm not sure why it is happening, but I really don't want to go through another ultrasound, more tests, etc. I'm sick and tired of doctors. I want to be LEFT ALONE. Every two weeks I am poked, prodded and stuck with needles. I am so tired of it. I hate having to take time out of my life to schedule in a doctors appointment or a lab visit. My rheumatologist mentioned having me see a kidney specialist due to the radiology report I got when I was having my gall bladder removed. Ugh. NO MORE DOCTORS.

I'm heading to bed soon. This headache won't quit and I am supposed to go to the gym in the morning.

I Think You Get My Drift...

I haven't specified this "bleeding" thing, but I'm sure you can all catch on. It's been 2 weeks. I am going to call the health center tomorrow and try to get an appointment that same day. If I can't walk-in care is always available, but I don't like to go there because they normally are not prepared to deal with someone with my history.

I woke up today with stomach problems. I decided to eat something and that made it better, but I'm still not feeling that great. I'm achy and very tired. I have a Spanish and psych exam tomorrow, but I'm going to get into bed soon. I've done a decent amount of studying so far.

My mail still has not come. Its so frustrating. I want my movies! Especially this weekend because I will probably just lay around my apartment. The Da Vinci Code comes on Saturday at 8, so I will at least have that.

I did a little research about lupus and bleeding and it seems like lupus can be a cause. Maybe that's whats happening. But I can't imagine, even if it is lupus, that it should go on for this long. It's painful and I'm tired.

Hopefully I can get in tomorrow and get some answers.